SUNROSE04: bbrraadd??
Afext: i can't talk
SUNROSE04: why are you not talking to me?
SUNROSE04: why?
Afext: I am fucked up drugged out
Afext: reading Big Brtother stuff
SUNROSE04: well what about sunday?
Afext: I don't think so.
SUNROSE04: why?
Afext: cois I am fucked
SUNROSE04: not now on sunday
SUNROSE04: dont take anything on sunday
SUNROSE04: I think you need to get out
Afext: Right now I can't think I don't want to get out right now I likemit here
Afext: life is peachy
SUNROSE04: r u ok?
Afext: i'm fine
SUNROSE04: r u talking to rosie?
Afext: no
SUNROSE04: cutelilangel142?
Afext: she talked to me but not anymore
SUNROSE04: oh
SUNROSE04: that was rosie
Afext: ok
SUNROSE04: her friend wants to kill himself
SUNROSE04: what should she tell him?
Afext: tell him life is beautiful and he has every reason to live
Afext: is darkness really better than light?
Afext: When you get to the dead end, the dark end, of the tunnel... it's not quite so homely...
Afext: Death, the fear of permanate hospitilization, is terriftying when you really get there... I'd never kill myself knowing what I know now.
Afext: Tidal waves are sent throughout the entire world when someone dies before their time. it effects 6 billion people.
Afext: in little ways it pulls the world around
Afext: the future is scary, it's horribly scary, but have you ever met an old man who looked back on his life bitterly and didn't enjoy it at all? ... I doubt it.
Afext: Times change, scenery changes, but we change with it
Afext: we're constantly moving forward along with everything else, we adapt... outr future is as bright as our mothers and fathers.
Afext: we have ever reason to live because everything is so perfrect for us, everything is beautiful and you can never really hit rock bottom as long as you are still living
Afext: life is everything, anything beyond that doesn't matter.
Afext: we all reach a point where we realize that, we all should exist on this plane, but we don't
Afext: we all think materials matter and money matters but it doesn't
Afext: we should be thankful for life and the ability to have free thought and be such marvelous creatures, we are beautiful, we are magnificant
Afext: we are everything and anything that could ever exist, and we limit ourselves because we think money and material posessions matter
Afext: they don't. we should be grateful for living. if we all felt like i do right now we would all live in peace and harmony
Afext: we'd have the perfect world, the perfect world. everyone would share everything becyase objects don't really matter
SUNROSE04: wow
Afext: nothing matters but yourself, everything revolves around you there is no reason to think otherwise. your happiness is priority one.
Afext: your emotional well being and balance is not worth one person. or three people. or six. or twelve. or twenty four. or fourty eight. or ninety-six. it all doesn't matter.
Afext: if you focus on yourself you will prevail and will be so happy and beautiful, that's all that matters, you, you. if you're happy being homeless laying on the street in newspaper, then thats GOOD. be happy! do what you want with your life
Afext: no one would be unhappy... everything would be perfect, if we all thought like I do.
SUNROSE04: where did you get all this from?
Afext: life is beautiful.
Afext: this is all in my head.
Afext: i typed this all right now,.
SUNROSE04: wow
SUNROSE04: i'm tierd
SUNROSE04: what time is it?
Afext: i am like. wow
Afext: it's 10:01
SUNROSE04: wow
Afext: live life day by day.... love everything you see.
SUNROSE04: you should come with us
Afext: it's all beauty, everything is a marvel..
Afext: where?
SUNROSE04: uptoun
Afext: uptown is a dirty place
SUNROSE04: me and my bf have been together for a week and he hasen't even held my hand
Afext: I want to go to perihelion
Afext: he sucks
SUNROSE04: and its not dirty
Afext: Perihelion!
SUNROSE04: who sucks?
Afext: I want to go to Perihelion
Afext: Take me to Perihelion!
SUNROSE04: perihelion?
Afext: Yes!
Afext: Perhelion is where I want to be
SUNROSE04: where is that?
Afext: Far away.
Afext: It's a beautiful place. The greatest place to ve
SUNROSE04: what state?
Afext: It's not in a state
Afext: it's everywhere but so far away
SUNROSE04: what?
Afext: It's inside your head, where you're floating, it's pure grey, except it's so beautiful
SUNROSE04: you are on some crack!
Afext: no, no.
SUNROSE04: well consiter going w/ me
Afext: Why?
Afext: You have a b/f.
SUNROSE04: and who sucks?
Afext: I am love and I am life.
SUNROSE04: so you have a girlfriend
Afext: then whats the point?
SUNROSE04: you are my friend
SUNROSE04: and you spend too much time at home on your computer
Afext: No I don't
Afext: I am fine.
Afext: Uptown is bleh
SUNROSE04: so you would go with me if i dident have a bf?
Afext: I... uhrm.
Afext: I uh.. shit. rhm.
Afext: Yeah, if I didn't have a g/f
SUNROSE04: why?
SUNROSE04: we would still be friends
Afext: Because you're awesome. I think you can understand me now.
SUNROSE04: no im not
Afext: Don't argue with me
SUNROSE04: my bf writes me letters like if i was a goddess
SUNROSE04: what is the point
Afext: Who is your boyfriend? What is his name?
Afext: I don't think you're a goddess
Afext: I think you're cool, cool to be around.
SUNROSE04: does he want something ot of me?
Afext: You a cool chica, you're nifty, interesting.... woudln't say you're a goddess though... I am really honest on dxm lol
SUNROSE04: lol
SUNROSE04: why do people like me? What is so neat about me?
SUNROSE04: tell me the truth
Afext: You're beautiful in a way, too, a little more than how everyone is beautiful... sometimes you aren't though... sometimes you make yourself really ugly but sometimes when you don't think about it you are beautiful
SUNROSE04: Ill let you read one of the letters he wrote me
SUNROSE04: i do that because i dont want to be pretty
SUNROSE04: people get mad when you are pretty
SUNROSE04: any suggestions?
SUNROSE04: please have an answer for me because you are a person who always gives me the right ones
SUNROSE04: brad??
Afext: matt salo called I'm talking to him
SUNROSE04: oh well im more important
SUNROSE04: lol
SUNROSE04: talk to me!!
SUNROSE04: ggguuurrr( and that grawl thing i do)
Afext: matt salo said me and you are "fueding"?
Afext: "feuding"
SUNROSE04: ??
SUNROSE04: who cares about matt
Afext: matt is weird
Afext: matt wanted Donna to kill those people at EW
SUNROSE04: EW?
Afext: east whittier
SUNROSE04: oh
SUNROSE04: did you read what i said?
SUNROSE04: r u still talking?
SUNROSE04: fine i'm gonna go
SUNROSE04: bye
SUNROSE04: i said BYE
SUNROSE04: at leasted you could say bye
SUNROSE04: ill cal u
SUNROSE04 signed off at 10:27:57 PM.